Sleepless

It’s almost twenty minutes past midnight – the morning of February 17th, 2009. The refrigerator is groaning as loud as it can get – with the wee hours serenity, and possibly my sleeplessness. I tried to sleep, but when I tried, it was too early.. But I am happy that she got to sleep – she’s got a flight to catch in a few hours from now.

It’s been a while since I have put up through a night. I remember college years: colloqually dubbed as night-out (I wonder if anywhere else on this planet, people refer to the same by this term) was very common – since education in engineering involves extreme mental and spiritual (?) metamorphism in one’s life. Sometimes I wonder if anyone outside the engineering circle – who has never stayed in a hostel – can ever understand what it means to be there!

Light-headed thoughts blabbering out of a sleepless mind. I can hear the fluttering flames in the fireplace and Flora speculating her fur (she never sleeps). This uninvited sense of loneliness creeping in through the layers of light-headed thoughts can only make me feel more awake!

She will be gone in a few hours: for a whole week. It would be childish to cry over this departure (tis only a week!), but I feel terribly void of happiness thinking about the following nights which I’ll have to sleep alone. Human company is an addiction (tis only a week!). And once you have tasted the nectar of social-bondage, it becomes harder to refrain from the elements (tis only a week!). Though I have plans to spend with friends from work, at the end of the day, I’ll be returning home to myself – alone… These thoughts will keep me awake. Weird?

~ by mrinabh on February 17, 2009.